Offcenter

FINALLY midterms are over!  My midterm schedual was brutal this year. Two of my toughests classes were back to back on the same day. Followed by a four hour lab that we didn't even finish so I had homework. Ugh! At least its all in the past now.  I keep thinking life is gonna slow down to the way it was before, but it probably won't. Sigh sigh sigh. I feel like putty right now. Like so tired for no particiular reason. Actually there is a reason, in celebration of finishing my exams, I decided to stay up waaaaay too late last night watching Dazed and Confused. It made me wish i was alive in the seventies. If I had a time machine that is the first place I would visit. And I would see my parents when they were my age - I woner if we woul be friends... ?? Probably. I mean they raised me. I'm sure I would be a suitable friend for them. I can't wait til I'm at the age that we can be like best friends the way my mom and my granmda are. I wonder if it will happen soon..

I'm outside again. Don;t know how many more outoor blogs I'm gonna be able to make this year.. It's starting to get pretty cold. BAH who am I kidding? Its almost November and I'm out here in a light bunnyhug!!! My fingers are a little chilly though haha 

There are times when I think that I won't make it through university alive. Like all of last week. It was so painful to sit in the library for hours on end just reading and writring, reading and writing!! I don't think anyone probably did good on the bmsc 224 midterm though.. It was ridiculously detailed and worded very tricky. Maybe I will get lucky and scrape up a 54%. Geez. I'm gonna have to rock the final and the rest of the labs now. Can't afford anymore shitty marks. 

What else can I tell you? This blog has been a pretty unconnected string of thoughts. OH its Halloween next week! But I'm celebrating this weekend at Monster Mash :D It should be fun if it's anything like LB5Q :) I don't even want to say what I'm being. It's pretty embarassing...

Have you ever been listening to music and just not even noticed it was playing? I usually listen to music on the bus or when I walk to school.. and sometimes when I get to school I cant even remember what songs I heard in that ten minute period! It;s crazy how terrible you can remember things when you're mind is occupied with other thoughts. 

I guess there isn't much else I can talk about.. My battery is gonna die here pretty quickly. Friggen Jenna forgot her English textbook at home today so I had to lug it to school for her and then she didn't even need it!!

Uh living arrangements have been interesting...  I don't really like one of myy roommates ... haha neither do my other roomies.. 

Anyway.. songs I'm listening to right now are:

Hey Hey Hey -Michael Franti

Paradise - Coldplay

How to Love - Lil Wayne (is that seriously his name? It's so awful.)

Disaster - Jojo

We found eachother in the dark - City and Colour

Every Little Thing -Young the Giant

and..

Love you Like a Love Song -Selena Gomez -IM SO ASHAMED!!!  Plus I'm a huge hypocrit for beaking this song just about as much as I listen to it. At least I'm not listening to Mistltoe by JB on repeat like Jenna.... haha 

Ugh I have a lab in over an hour... and ten minutes of battery left.. I wish I could just skip my lab. 

Wow I'm sorry to whoever has made it thus far in this post. It's so boring

Tomorow I'm joining the ranks of women everywhere and going shoe shopping with one of my girlfriends. Yes. Me. Shoe shopping. What is this city doing to me?! Oh well.. I need to invest in some winter ish shoes anyway. 

Jump Into My Mind! .. for a second

Been doing a lot of life thinking lately. I wonder if I'll ever stop this obsession I have with thinking impossible thoughts. Anyway, here's the latest:

Ever wonder if you've been alive before? As in the body you are in now is a reincarnation of a life you had before, but you don't remember any of it. Like your personality has been in someone from hundreds or thousands of years ago. What if EVERYONE is simply a duplicated personality of someone who lived in the past? What if everyone's soul is simply recycled and put into a new body? What if I lived and died multiple times already? I'm trying to wrap my head around it a bit, but it's kind of hard - I can't decide that, if this is actually what is happening, if it's a good thing or not. It seems like it should be comforting to know that I potentially have life ahead of me after death, but it also seems sad that I won't remember anything from this life. That I will just have to start new and make the same mistakes. Oh my god. What if I'm living a slightly modernized version of the life I've already lived before? Like someone in the past followed my same footsteps, was good at what I'm good at, fell in love with the same people I fell in love with? We're we part of each other's past lives? Was I born to the same parents back then? Did I know my siblings? I can't imagine life without the family I have right now, it's an impossible thought.

On a different token, have you ever looked at a stranger and tried to picture what they're going to look like in 30 years? 50 years? 70 years? I gave presentations to high school kids this past week about joining my university and I looked at all their faces and how incredibly young they looked. Then I started thinking if I've aged that much in 2 years, how much will these kids age in a few decades? I think I'm getting pretty good at it. I can look at someones face and visualize wrinkles or a droopy smile. I can see laugh lines appear with short, white hair framing their faces. I think I spend too much time looking at strangers. Haha. It's almost impossible to know what babies or small kids will look like when their way older, but once they hit their mid teens, I can see them as old people and it kind of makes my day sometimes.